Where is my mind?

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In other news, my date yesterday went really well. We went to Panera for lunch, where I proceeded to spill soup on the poor guy. I was mortified, but he helped me clean up the mess and was really cool about it. Aside from floor soup, I was almost shocked at how well it went. There weren't any awkward pauses in the conversation. We head over to Best Buy and he helps me to pick out a cable that will hook my iPod up to Ms. Sweet Dee Marvel. We played Rock Band 2. It was my public debut and his first time. We both were horrible. We will be going out again tomorrow, Friday the 13th. I can only imagine what I'll spill on him then.

ps- He thinks Malkmus is a god too! How amazing!

I got a 2008 Dodge Avenger. I am in total shock that I actually own a car that is not a total piece of shit. I will post pictures soon, but for now I need to name it. I am thinking "Sweet Dee". Suggestions? Perhaps after an actual Avenger?

ps- my car has a refrigerator in it!

Next week I'm going car shopping with my dad. He's not paying for it, but he is going to help me out with getting a loan (impossible now days) and all of that good stuff. Today while we were out to lunch he told me to make sure I save all of my money. I completely agreed with him.

Until... I saw this: Yeah I bought the deluxe one. Oops.

It was limited to a mere 500 copies. If that doesn't scream "BUY ME MEOW!" I don't know what does. I think if you look at how much you're getting, it is totes worth it. This would be the first "fun" thing I've bought myself since I started working. I think I deserve it. I'm sure I can rationalize a trillion more reasons to make myself feel better.

Maybe it won't come out of my account until it ships.

I went to Toni's Wednesday night. We ate at P.F. Chang's and proceeded to go back to her apartment to get our drink on. Long story short, we went through a bottle of raspberry vodka and a 2-liter of Sprite. I woke up early because I had to go to work. I headed to Meijer's where I got two bottles of 7-Up and ibuprofen. Need I say why?

Today I woke up and felt like I gad another hangover. Headache, dizzy, nauseous, and this time around, a sore throat. I started feeling a little better until I locked both sets of keys in my car after my first case this morning. I waited almost two hours outside. At one point there were three policemen watching my grandpa and uncle try breaking into my car. Hmm.

While I'm discussing my car, let me just say I hate it. I have a pretty bad oil leak and there's a rattling starting in my engine. Not to mention the transmission is acting wonky. I'm going to be needing one soon. How I can afford that, I have no idea.

Buy this car to drive to work. Drive to work to pay for this car - Handshakes, Metric

Things can become so frustrating so quickly.

Space Oddity has to be one of the best songs ever written, period.

I hate stressing out. I am fine and then bam every problem hits me at once. My car is running good, but there are a few issues that aren't good at all, mainly costly issues. I am going to need a far more reliable car for school and it's up to me to save up for it. After this trip to New York, that's my next goal as far as savings goes.

Speaking of school, I need to take the Hesi exam so I can secure my spot starting in the winter quarter. I need to get that over with so it is one less thing on my mind. It is basically like a proficiency test, so I'm not really concerned with passing it, just getting it over with more or less. School however, is stressing me out. I'm worried that it is going to ruin everything. I know it's only for a year, but a year is a long time. It is an especially long time if you aren't seeing friend(s), going to concerts, or doing anything besides studying.

I need to make some actual money also. Burger King is a rip off and waste of my time. It's frustrating spending so much time there being miserable and getting so little reward. It would be quite pointless to look for a job before NY though, so there isn't much I can do at the moment.

I'm sure everything will be fine. There are always ways to make things work and I've got many people to help me out, I think. I can still do concerts and see friends, I'll just have to cut back a lot. Everything will be worth it when I am able too move to New York for good within two years time.

On a much better note, Jesse Lacey is coming up in two days time! I think that if it's even possible, this show will be even more wonderful than the last. Just the thought is making me feel much better.

I have a car now, or should I say again. This car is the Laser, the cute little number I wanted so badly before. It is currently lacking in the audio department (literally), but next time I get paid I'm going to buy a cd player. That problem will be solved soon, until then I don't really care that much. One other problem for the time being is that fact that this car is as nasty as the might-as-well-be-naked fat guy's ass Karmen and I saw earlier downtown. I'll be solving that tomorrow when I clean it like I've never cleaned anything before. Then comes the matter of the title, brakes, oil, and alignment. All of which my mother will be taking care of for me. I know, right? What ever the hell is going on here, or what ever hell is freezing over, I can't say I mind it in the least. I feel like I'm being spoiled right now. It feels nice.

I was able to drive it a little bit tonight. It just felt so good. I swear that this car and I were meant for each other. Now comes the matter of naming it. I am thinking of being and uber-dork and using my awesome cat name of "Rilo" on it, but I'm not too sure yet. Maybe something better will pop up. I've never been good at naming things. I named my first dog, a golden retriever, Sandy. As you can see, I was an incredibly original eleven year-old. Then last year came Noel, which I haven't confessed to anyone, but that is a fragrance name my mom had at her flea market booth. Once again my originality came into play here. Perhaps it is just me, but I suddenly found the fact that I'm putting more thought into my car's name than previous/current pets, a bit sad. Oh well, I really love this car. I don't think I could be happier. Actually in about thirty minutes I will be.

I finally managed to find the Filter with Rilo Kiley on it thanks to Karmen's excellent finding skills. So far the article is good, but I am slightly nervous about the album. They point out very clearly that they have evolved and sound completely different from previous albums. Obviously eveolution is a good thing, or else we'd all be meaningless spores flaoting in god knows what, but sometimes it can still be disappointing. The evolution they've made so far is easily distinguishable and I love all of the albums. I don't know, maybe I'm making a problem out of nothing. I do like the three new songs I've heard, I just don't love them like the other ones. I suppose like anything else it just takes time.

A walk is coming soon. I feel it, mostly because I suggested it earlier and what else do Karmen and I do? I feel really great right now. Everything just feels nice. I feel really happy. I can't explain it in better terms, but you know what I mean.

I need my own car for who knows how many reasons and whatever they are, it doesn't really matter anyways. What matters is that I have the choice between two cars that, well that just plain suck. Option one is the laser. It has been sitting in out garage for nearly two years with the windows down and full of junk. So who knows what the hell is living in there or was living in there. It doesn't start and my mom has had problems with it the entire time we've owned it. Oh, and it comes with a complete lack of even a radio. Option two it the big ass mother of a van that lurks in our driveway. I don't even want to know how much money I'll spend on gas in that beast. Also, the added bonus of four flat tires is quite appealing. Not to mention the completely fucked-up front end with no bumper.

I'm not complaining though, more like just ranting. I am completely appreciative that I get to drive my mom's car now and I realize most kids don't get a great car either, but it's just a let down. It's funny that I'll only need the car for a year or two.